The other day an old friend of mine tweeted this: "it always sucks to be the person who cares more". I don't know why but her tweet really brings up an interesting underlying idea which is yes, it does in fact suck to be the person who cares more (Yeah, I realize I copied that word for word but it's pretty self explanatory folks). Think of any situation in life where you care about someone and find out they don't care the same about you. Isn't that typically when "shit hiteths the faneth", if you will?
There is no feeling worse than thinking about someone only to find out they are thinking about many other people and maybe you as a side thought along the way. It's just turrible, unpleasant, and saddening. Is it human nature that the one side continues caring in hopes of the other side finally caring back? If so, human nature is dumb. If one side doesn't care the only logical response should be to focus your care and interest elsewhere. I would very much like to tell the friend who tweeted the earlier comment this but something tells me it would not bode well. So until then I write about it here, and learn from it.
The hardest thing in the world for me is to let my guard down to someone and be genuine and sincere in hopes of the same in return. My friend's tweet has made me realize that perhaps I have been foolish in doing so recently. So today begins a new initiative, not necessarily to care less, but perhaps to be a little more careless. To think less, perceive more and have fun with it. Starting today, the personal shield I've recently let down is going back to maximum strength. Just in case.
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